oh god, please give me strength.
i need to snap out of it.
must stop thinking.
focus izni. try harder.
3 weeks left. to strive.
to succeed.
i need to. i have to.
i hope you're alright.
i hope you're doing fine on your own.
i have to work harder,
for myself, for you, for us.
if it's meant to be,
i'll meet/see you in the future.
cos in my heart,
you'll always be in my every 'tomorrow'
opening up to people was never an
easy thing for me to do.
but last night, i did, didnt i?
indirectly, i did.
i told someone my problem.
that's a form of opening up, right?
and i did heed her advice.
oh god. how hard is it to open up?
when i called you today,
and you picked up for 2 secs,
trust me, my heart stopped beating.
i need to find out what's really going on.
please take care of yourself.
i'll keep praying for you.
i love you.
goodnight.